Monday, September 20, 2010

Feeling a little blue...

This weekend went by so quickly! I’m feeling kind of depressed because I won’t really get to see Jeff much until Wednesday night. And because he’s gone I have a hard time falling asleep, so I’ve been staying up until he gets home, and then I end up short on sleep, but I don’t think there’s any way around it. I’ve even taken my melatonin (which helps me sleep) earlier by a half hour or so and it still didn’t do any good.

So on my drive to work this morning, I decided I need to start taking my D vitamin (helps with S.A.D. which I seem to deal with in the Fall and Winter) and exercise regularly, simply because lately I think I’ve been more and more depressed. A part of that is my job. I am at the point where I really almost hate it which is sad because it’s actually a good job and quite enjoyable, but the part I hate is that I am very taken advantage of there. There are about 3 people who work in a completely different department, who are constantly coming up to my office and handing me projects (their work projects, that they get paid for) to do for them. They don’t ask, they just assume I’ll do it, and that’s it. And until a month ago, I couldn’t complain to my boss because they asked her and she said yes, but I got at new boss at the beginning of the month, and I’m just giving her some time to settle in before talking to her about it. Until then however, I so don’t want to go to work. I know it sounds like I’m complaining about nothing, but I’ve always thought that when you’ve been working for a place for 4 ½ years, and signed on under one job description, and then they pile on a lot of extra responsibility, you deserve some extra compensation for that, and a little appreciation. Ugh, I’m just frustrated. And now I’m done venting.

On to the good stuff; I didn’t do well eating this weekend, at all! But I did keep track of it, so I know how bad it was. What is it that makes you eat poorly, all the while telling yourself you need to stop, you don’t need to eat that, you’re not hungry, etc?

So, Liz at Life in Liz's Shoes issued a challenge which I’ve taken her up on. For the next 30 days, starting today, I will work out in some way, every single day, and will blog. Even if it’s a two sentence blog, I will blog. I’ve never been very good at following through on challenges, but I plan to change that, and what better time than today, or this month, when I know I need to get back on track anyways? I’m gonna do it and I’m gonna do great!

I came across this YouTube video this morning, and it really made me want to get on track. Check it out. It is so motivational!

Is anyone excited about the newest Biggest loser season starting tomorrow? While I don’t think it’s quite so healthy to lose so much weight, so fast, and that they seem to forget that the mind needs to be re-taught healthy eating, I do enjoy the challenges. Watching people accomplish activities that they never thought they’d be able to do is amazing to me. I just know I’m gonna need a box of Kleenex on the coffee table, but I’m really looking forward to the show.

And last, I’ve decided to buckle down and do the Beck diet solution again. Since it works through cognitive behavioral therapy, and really helped me to get started on my weight loss a year ago, I know it can be effective. And it really does help to re-teach my mind about healthy eating, and how to control myself with emotional situations. I made a goal to be at 250 pounds by the new year, and I am going to get there.


  1. I hope you get out of that blue feeling soon. Try to focus on the good things and let the slip ups of the past go. There's nothing you can do but move on.

    I'm so excited for this season's Biggest Loser. I was at the challenge when they picked the two people who would be on the black team (Brendan and Fredo) and even saw myself in one of the previews.

    I'm sure you'll get to your goal if you make it a priority. When I start falling off the wagon I keep asking myself "how bad do you want it?"

    Good luck!

  2. I totally get where you're coming from with your work situation. No matter how nice we are or how willing to help, there is a limit and only so much we can take on before we start to feel used. Talk to the new boss soon; hopefully that will help get things to a better place for you there. :)

  3. I know just what you mean about the job thing. I had a job that actually wanst that bad, and I was more than capable of it. And it paid well. But my supervisor was so mean to me and I am not used to that! I like to get along with everyone :) So making the decision to be a stay at home mom was not that hard! Hang in there. And stand up for yourself!


  4. Hi Laura! Thanks for deciding to join my challenge! Seeing that you were going to try it too really made me commit to actually working out today - so thank you!

    Let's keep track of each other to make sure we stay with this challenge - it's just 30 days, we can do it :)

  5. Wish you luck at your work. Proud that you are tracking, more than I have been doing. And I agree with you about the biggest loser. Good luck on your challenge.

  6. I love that video! It was indeed very very inspiring! I hope that you find your groove with the Beck diet and we meet our goal then.