This weekend went by so quickly! I’m feeling kind of depressed because I won’t really get to see Jeff much until Wednesday night. And because he’s gone I have a hard time falling asleep, so I’ve been staying up until he gets home, and then I end up short on sleep, but I don’t think there’s any way around it. I’ve even taken my melatonin (which helps me sleep) earlier by a half hour or so and it still didn’t do any good.
So on my drive to work this morning, I decided I need to start taking my D vitamin (helps with S.A.D. which I seem to deal with in the Fall and Winter) and exercise regularly, simply because lately I think I’ve been more and more depressed. A part of that is my job. I am at the point where I really almost hate it which is sad because it’s actually a good job and quite enjoyable, but the part I hate is that I am very taken advantage of there. There are about 3 people who work in a completely different department, who are constantly coming up to my office and handing me projects (their work projects, that they get paid for) to do for them. They don’t ask, they just assume I’ll do it, and that’s it. And until a month ago, I couldn’t complain to my boss because they asked her and she said yes, but I got at new boss at the beginning of the month, and I’m just giving her some time to settle in before talking to her about it. Until then however, I so don’t want to go to work. I know it sounds like I’m complaining about nothing, but I’ve always thought that when you’ve been working for a place for 4 ½ years, and signed on under one job description, and then they pile on a lot of extra responsibility, you deserve some extra compensation for that, and a little appreciation. Ugh, I’m just frustrated. And now I’m done venting.
On to the good stuff; I didn’t do well eating this weekend, at all! But I did keep track of it, so I know how bad it was. What is it that makes you eat poorly, all the while telling yourself you need to stop, you don’t need to eat that, you’re not hungry, etc?
So, Liz at Life in Liz's Shoes issued a challenge which I’ve taken her up on. For the next 30 days, starting today, I will work out in some way, every single day, and will blog. Even if it’s a two sentence blog, I will blog. I’ve never been very good at following through on challenges, but I plan to change that, and what better time than today, or this month, when I know I need to get back on track anyways? I’m gonna do it and I’m gonna do great!
I came across this YouTube video this morning, and it really made me want to get on track. Check it out. It is so motivational!
Is anyone excited about the newest Biggest loser season starting tomorrow? While I don’t think it’s quite so healthy to lose so much weight, so fast, and that they seem to forget that the mind needs to be re-taught healthy eating, I do enjoy the challenges. Watching people accomplish activities that they never thought they’d be able to do is amazing to me. I just know I’m gonna need a box of Kleenex on the coffee table, but I’m really looking forward to the show.
And last, I’ve decided to buckle down and do the Beck diet solution again. Since it works through cognitive behavioral therapy, and really helped me to get started on my weight loss a year ago, I know it can be effective. And it really does help to re-teach my mind about healthy eating, and how to control myself with emotional situations. I made a goal to be at 250 pounds by the new year, and I am going to get there.