I was thinking today about why I’m having such a hard time losing the weight, and changing my poor habits. Through SparkPeople and the internet in general, I have the map. I have the workout plans, the strength training exercises, the cardio workouts, I have the food plans, the menus, the shopping lists, the nutritional values, the free food trackers. I literally have the directions written down for me to follow. Yet, when it comes down to it, I always take the wrong path on this map.
And I still don’t understand why. It’s like “weight loss” has been handed to me, on a platter with a note that says follow this and you’ll be thin. So why don’t I? Yes, the hard part is actually following the directions, but it’s certainly not impossible. I must have some semblance of self-control, if I was able to already lose the 30 pounds. [sigh] I’m still working hard at following the directions. I hate this feeling, of knowing what I need to do and not actually doing it. I think this may be my laziness coming through. I don’t know, but I’m figuring it out.